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Eye of The Argus
Me: A Bum
ByParkChang-hwan
EditorialConsultant
he urge to stay in bed all day long and not do anything developed into a lifestyle as I wrapped up my
studiesatHUFSandreadiedmyselfforlifeaftercollege.Isetself-improvementgoalswithenthusiasm,
butIjustcouldnotbringmyselftopursuethemwhenthetimecametoact.Eachdaywouldbefullof
brokenpromisestomyself,andtonumbmyself,Iwouldturntoshort-termpleasures.Havingbeenoneofthose
bright-eyedkids,eagertolearnsomethingnewandalwayshavingthedrivetotakeonthenexttask,thislifestyle
wasalivingversionofhell.Icouldbarelygetoutofbedeverymorning(orlunchtime,rather).Iaskedmyself,
“Whathappened?”
I first looked to people around me?especially those who have been by my side for the past few years. From
what I gathered, it seemed that I had lost the industrious edge that one needs to survive in this competitive
society.ThenIlookedinwardsandfoundthatIwasverytired.Thereservesofenergythatoncegavemepassion
werealldepleted.Physically,mylimbsfeltliketheywerejusthangingthere,andmystepshadlosttheirpurpose.
Inreflection,IrealizedIhadburnedmyselfoutthroughouttheyears.Therewasnotasinglesemesterorbreak
whereIwasnotworkingorengaginginanextracurricularactivityortwo.Iwouldtrytoextendmyscheduleto
fitallthatIcouldphysicallydo.Indoingso,Iwaslefttiredandde-energized.Ibecamealackadaisicalbumwith
exaggeratedinitiative.
Looking back now, I was almost running on empty as I neared my sophomore year. By the time junior year
rolled around, it was just inertial force that kept me going. This could only be natural, however: four straight
years of toiling through college, and before that, two extra years of studying for the college entrance exams,
plusanotherthreeyearsofhighschool.Foraboutnineyears,lifewasfast-paced,sostrugglingthroughthelast
coupleofyearsonlymakessense.
I am fairly sure I did not rest properly either. I never knew what “rest” meant, so I would only emulate what
othersdotorest.NowIknowitistheactofenergizingone’smindandbodyonone’sownaccord.Theonlyway
formetonotbealackadaisicalbumis,forthetimebeing,tobeonebecauseIrealizenowthatitisonewayto
recharge.
Justforalittlewhile,Iwillindulgemyselfinthejoyofsleepinginonweekdays.Iwillhappilydoonlyacouple
ofthingsaday.Iwillnotletmyselfgetstressedbyseekingwork,butreallytakethingsoneatatime.Iwassick
andtiredofdoinganythingatallbythetimemysenioryearwasending.Rememberingthis,Iwillkeepthings
simple.
Bysociety’sstandards,Iwillloseoutonsomethings.Iwillhavefewerexamscoresandlicensestoshowmy
worth, but considering the health of my heart and my mind, I have gained so much more. I have leisure in my
heartandmythoughtsareclearer.Iamnolongertheoverenthusiasticbright-eyedkid,butsomeonewhoknows
his pace and peace. This is a blessing in disguise, because, despite all this apparent negativity, I will soon be
rechargedandrenewed.
chhwpark@hufs.ac.kr
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www.theargus.org
Me: A Bum
ByParkChang-hwan
EditorialConsultant
he urge to stay in bed all day long and not do anything developed into a lifestyle as I wrapped up my
studiesatHUFSandreadiedmyselfforlifeaftercollege.Isetself-improvementgoalswithenthusiasm,
butIjustcouldnotbringmyselftopursuethemwhenthetimecametoact.Eachdaywouldbefullof
brokenpromisestomyself,andtonumbmyself,Iwouldturntoshort-termpleasures.Havingbeenoneofthose
bright-eyedkids,eagertolearnsomethingnewandalwayshavingthedrivetotakeonthenexttask,thislifestyle
wasalivingversionofhell.Icouldbarelygetoutofbedeverymorning(orlunchtime,rather).Iaskedmyself,
“Whathappened?”
I first looked to people around me?especially those who have been by my side for the past few years. From
what I gathered, it seemed that I had lost the industrious edge that one needs to survive in this competitive
society.ThenIlookedinwardsandfoundthatIwasverytired.Thereservesofenergythatoncegavemepassion
werealldepleted.Physically,mylimbsfeltliketheywerejusthangingthere,andmystepshadlosttheirpurpose.
Inreflection,IrealizedIhadburnedmyselfoutthroughouttheyears.Therewasnotasinglesemesterorbreak
whereIwasnotworkingorengaginginanextracurricularactivityortwo.Iwouldtrytoextendmyscheduleto
fitallthatIcouldphysicallydo.Indoingso,Iwaslefttiredandde-energized.Ibecamealackadaisicalbumwith
exaggeratedinitiative.
Looking back now, I was almost running on empty as I neared my sophomore year. By the time junior year
rolled around, it was just inertial force that kept me going. This could only be natural, however: four straight
years of toiling through college, and before that, two extra years of studying for the college entrance exams,
plusanotherthreeyearsofhighschool.Foraboutnineyears,lifewasfast-paced,sostrugglingthroughthelast
coupleofyearsonlymakessense.
I am fairly sure I did not rest properly either. I never knew what “rest” meant, so I would only emulate what
othersdotorest.NowIknowitistheactofenergizingone’smindandbodyonone’sownaccord.Theonlyway
formetonotbealackadaisicalbumis,forthetimebeing,tobeonebecauseIrealizenowthatitisonewayto
recharge.
Justforalittlewhile,Iwillindulgemyselfinthejoyofsleepinginonweekdays.Iwillhappilydoonlyacouple
ofthingsaday.Iwillnotletmyselfgetstressedbyseekingwork,butreallytakethingsoneatatime.Iwassick
andtiredofdoinganythingatallbythetimemysenioryearwasending.Rememberingthis,Iwillkeepthings
simple.
Bysociety’sstandards,Iwillloseoutonsomethings.Iwillhavefewerexamscoresandlicensestoshowmy
worth, but considering the health of my heart and my mind, I have gained so much more. I have leisure in my
heartandmythoughtsareclearer.Iamnolongertheoverenthusiasticbright-eyedkid,butsomeonewhoknows
his pace and peace. This is a blessing in disguise, because, despite all this apparent negativity, I will soon be
rechargedandrenewed.
chhwpark@hufs.ac.kr
36
www.theargus.org
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